november rain

its been 4 days of "quarantine", of course in between i sneaked an hour of each day to breathe the air outside to do lil marketing. doct alrdy said that its not gonna be easy to stay home for long wit a kid. but i succeeded! my lil fabo is fantabulously recovering, wats left now are the brown marks on his soles.

now that he is recovered, he is talking alot more and telling me his "stories" and just this morning he let out a babyish "mummy". only once, and he wont do it again! argh baby! thats superb! his favourite word for now is "mamam". if asked if he wants susu, he will nod his head, and point towards where his milk bottles are stored. the brightest part is when he will pick out any of the biscuits bottle and bring it over to me, and get me to open it for him.

French fries and hashbrowns are his fave food. he will normally dip it in tomato sauce, unbelievably imitating the way adults would dip into their sauces! kepo la IA!lol! he loves rice/porridge and soup too, chicken rice wit soup is another favourite. He can finish a whole piece of prata too :) i cant imagine, he eats like an adult !

other than that, i realised how manja my boy has been. while playing, occasionally he will come up to me, and hug me, either that, he will bring his forehead forward to my lips so that i would kiss it. *breathes*. lately he would need to hug me before sleep.macamana tak makin sayang si manja ni. forever more, IA and his smiles will melt me, day and night.

awaiting more lil actions from him that would amaze me.. Lil IA, pls dun grow too fast. mumy is enjoying every single minute of u now, no matter how cranky or noisy you can be!

strength

its been awhile again.

my lil fabo, contacted HFMD. seriously, i have no clue how it got there, but i was angry at myself for being a careless mum.

i dunno if its me, or its just a mum's instinct that i felt different abt the fever he contacted just days ago. he was well and babytalking much, running around in the day and night till he self-sleep on the bed while playing wit me and hubby. i got awokened by his usual small cooing at 3+am, and i decided to just give him a quick kiss, like i normally always do. i felt a lil warmth on his cheek and placed my palm on his forehead to be sure im hallucinating. "hmm.. warm or is it me?" so i shook the hubby, and made him tell me.

Hub : aaahhhh...
Me : ahh wat dear? ahhh is fever or not?
Hub : ahhhh fever.
Me: ??!!!!! fever!!!!

i scurried to the kitchen, opened the fridge, got the paracetemol out, left it to chill. switched on lights. got the thermometer. 37.8c. so right, it could be the aircon, blasting too much and he could be a lil cold, so lets just monitor abit more ok ayu. things like "teething fever?", "changing month fever?", "overactive fever?" all played in my mind. and i couldnt fall asleep till abt 6am, IA woke up cranky and noisy. i decided to check his temp again. 38.5c!!!! oh doct pls open early. im so nervous and hubb has left for morning shift. shoved a good 5ml paracetemol after his milk and he went back to sleep.

rushed my boy to the clinic, 2nd in queue, his body got even warmer and doct took his temp. 39.1c. my heart died on me for a beat. oh my poor child, pls stay strong. and doct told me to monitor and gave him medications as prescribed. and so i did and my boy got so much better in the evening and started playing peekaboo wit me and even said " chhhaaaaaaa". he even sweat much. so this stupid gal thought, ahhh he must be having "demam nak pandai". complacency sank in.

next afternoon i got a good shock to see red dots appearing on his legs, hands. smaller ones all over the rest of his body appeared like goose bumps. again, this silly gal thought .. "after fever rash" and i let it be.

next mornin came, as we both woke up i decided to check on the condition of his skin. my eyes widened to see his soles with bigger red marks. and without further adue, i washed up and rushed him to see the doctor.

doct : one look at it and i noe its hfmd.
me: *gasps* wat?!
doct : lucky thing his fever is gone and he has not much blisters or even no ulcers in his mouth.
me : thank GOd!
doct : still have to be monitored and keep him in for at least a week so he wont come into contact wit other kids and also other diseases that will worsen his condition
me :*quarantine time* my poor baby. so wat do i look out for?
doct : lethargic reactions, not drinking or eating well, and bring him straight to kk if these symptoms appear, he needs to be hydrated

DRIP? oh no. no way Jose! i still remember the agony when he was hospitalised for rotavirus. my heart kept pumping fast and prayers muttered underneath each breath. pls save my child oh Allah. and so, before we had to be "quarantined", i brought him to macd to enjoy a bit of time together. i have no freaking idea how uncomfortable this disease is, so all i knew is i had to make my lil one happy. hashbrowns it is.

sterilisations and disinfecting of everything began. whole house seems super germ-free suddenly.

and so i had to miss a few events or no plans to be executed for the next 4days now. till my lil fabo gets out of hfmd. and im pretty sure he is a strong boy, as i noticed the marks beginning to diminish slowly.

its 2am now, my heart still prays and worry for my lil one, and i noe, i need all the strength to keep us both going. and above all these, i know, ur my ultimate strength, IA.

October babies

As we turn into the month of October, i was actually anticipating for some babies to arrive, and also for bestie's birthday. The best part of it all, Bestie was to expect her lil bundle of joy to arrive a day before her big 30.

Allah swt had a different plan for her and hubby. Baby Shariq Hilmi gave us a wonderful surprise by giving his first cry on 03.10.10 at 1003hrs. cool numbers huh! u wont believe how much a cutey he is. weighing at 2.7kg, he is my tiny winy lil godson.*beams*. Although bestie had to do an emergency c-sect, im most happy that both mum & baby are good now. i was super anxious the moment she texted me tellin me she was in the labour ward. and of course, kiasu as i am, godAmmi came hours after lil SH was born. So bestie, your present this year came a lil too early, yeah!!

our dearest fren, Dahlinar, and hubby Zamir, on the other hand was expecting their baby to arrive on 08.10.10. Indeed, Naila Adilah is a girl of her words. She wasnt too early neither late, and another big surprise awaits us! She had a whooping good weight of 4.075kg and tall baby of 51cm! and her Mama actually gave birth to her normally! goodness gracious, you're such a strong-willed lady Lyn! Alhamdulillah, Naila was born on the last day of Syawal this year. I was delirious to see such a healthy chubby baby!

Idhan Akil now has three new frens. and of cos not forgetting LiL Donut, Aryf Naufal, heir to Nuriani & Sahurin! another adorable chubby baby!! masyallah. pipi nya! ammi cant wait to romos those again!

i kept smiling as i typed this entry. First, i was amazed at how my lil boy loved his 'siblings'. he didnt like the idea of the babies being taken away for feeding and he wanted me to allow him touch and kiss those babies. protective lil abang :) . am so proud of you, Jr.

right now, IA, at 15mths, you're babytalking a lot.. and i really wonder.. wat your first word will be?

to all my dearest frens, congratulations on the new arrivals :) may ALLAH swt protect and guide all of us thru to be good parents. Amin.

keepin it hood

its been a while since.

fastin month's been great. first time in our home. first time i managed the sahur and buka preparations. sometimes, i dun even noe wat to cook.

its the 14th day today, and in abt two weeks time, i be busy preparing the home for our first raya here.

i got Idhan his first baju kurung :)

and talking of which,

Idhan - started walking. His first few steps when he turned 13mth. wat a joy to see him waddle and chat baby talks happily as he strode along. he loves goin round the sofa and climbin up and down both sofa and bed. he has those typical *teet tot* noisy slippers almost all baby has. and he starts dancing to songs alot now too.

we play lots of ball, kicking or throwin, he even learnt how to throw the balls into the mini basketball net. he loves playin with blocks too, but instead of buildin em up, he throws em everywher. *faints*

especially so, Idhan Akil loves playing wit switches, so he switches his battery-operated toys on and off, anytime of the day. kadang2 pening dengar. playhouse disney and its songs makes him smile or dance ard alot too.

im glad im a sahm as i watch my son grow and develop new skills :)

was hibernating?

its been awhile. and i miss this space. i miss writing in it.

i have a whole lot to talk but just i prefer to have it simplified.

End of June, i was truly anticipating IA's 1st birthday. i just wanted to have something simple and memorable for him. no plans for any party but we decided to have some makan2 with frens and family-small makan2 that is.

then as i started typing my sms to these people, i realised that i have so many close family and frens.

so the messages went on like an inferno. and by the time i realised, its a lil too late that abt 2dozen headcounts invited. lol.

so yeah we had a small party for him at our home. decorate a lil here and there so it looks like a party. and of cos the lil Toy Story cake for the lil boy turning 1.

Thanks to the wonderful hearts of everyone, the lil makan2 session turned out well with almost 95% attendance and the beautiful gifts from everybody... Idhan is really a lucky baby.


after the party life was carried on as usual till the day he got his chicken pox jab. Idhan came down with fever (which is a normal thing after any jabs) , followed by vomiting at the night, and diarrhea and vomitin the days after. this saga realli left Idhan not himself, lying down most of the time, feelin uncomfortable, whiny and clingy. thinkin that this is too unusual and that thru my readings, i never heard of diarrhea being an aftermath of jabs on babies, i took him to the doctor. doctor told me to monitor for another day and see if the poor boy is still as lethargic and if so, to bring him to the hosp in case he is really dehydrated.


the condition didnt improve so i got him checked at the hosp and my gut feelings told me he would definitely be warded cos he dun look healthy at all. and yes true enuff, doctor advised him to be monitored and he might have to be on drip if he dun hydrate well after giving him some medication. Test results show - Rotavirus. Minor. Doctor suspect he got infected by air. Got too near someone who had stomach flu.

two nights at the hospital was agony. i couldnt sleep at all hearing other babies wail and cry in pain. seeing how uncomfy my son is, tryin to recover but kept waking up in the middle of the nights to loud crying of those children, filled my heart wit so much sorrow. thank God Idhan is a fighter. and with the many close people who came to visit and made him one happy boy, he recovered slowly over the two days but well enuff to be discharged on the 3rd day.

and of cos, i was one busy mum attending to my poor lil sick baby and giving my every best to comfort him and be there for him.

today, Idhan is back to his normal self, chuckling at our jokes, and always so manja with me. He uttered his first word too.. "mammmammm"!

i love you baby,and Mum hope you'll stay healthy always.

his latest addiction

IA's latest craze. my mobile phone. he's learnt to play the songs. he's learnt how to send empty text messages. yes, empty. lucky for me the sms is umlimited.

the next is my pair of spectacles. he used to pull em off my face and throw it aside. just days ago, he learnt how to put em back on, but slightly towards the tip of my nose bridge. heh.

he do not want to stand on his own, but he wants to walk wit our help. he is walkin slowly and no tiptoeing :) well done baby.

IA loves eating. whenever the adults starts chewing, he wil start grumbling. its his way of telling us he wants some. dah mcm abang2! semua dia nak! hehehe. alhamdulillah he is not the petty kind.

so we haf 18 days before IA turns 1!! yay! and it was ard this period last year i was feelng the contractions :) how time flies.

part of the list

smell of ur neck. shape of ur eyes and ur nose.

the way u stare as if u see right thru to my soul.

our quiet time. ur beautiful mind.

they're all part of the list. things that i missed.

things like your funny lil laugh or the way u smile or the way we kissed.

cos im seeing you every single time that i sit and reminisce.

u live in my memories forever more..